sammysicle | army!brat

"Are you gonna send me off to bed?" she asked, not caring at this point because her tummy felt so bad. She had no idea what movie to pick, doubting she'd be awake for long once she curled up in bed. She continued to sip on her smoothie, one thing that didn't seem to make her sick. That was a good thing if she was going to continue to be sick. She smiled warmly down at Noah when he picked her a movie. He knew mommy too well. "Aww, you did good baby. If I wasn't sick I'd hug and kiss you."

Noah smiled at mommy and blew her a kiss, hanging onto the movie once daddy showed it to mommy and Steve stood up, handing Noah mommys smoothie, "Take that Peanut, go into our bedroom and get comfy okay?" He said and Noah nodded his head, hurrying down the hall and Kojak ran after him, Hank not far behind and Steve leaned down and scooped Sam up in his arms. "Come on beautiful girl, lets go get you in bed and we'll all cuddle up and watch movies and Noah and I can take care'a you"

"He's such a sweetheart." she smiled, watching Noah, Kojak, and Hank take off down the hallway. She had gotten sick so quick that it had completely drained her so she was grateful when Steve picked her up and carried her to bed. "I can't believe how fast I got sick." She got comfortable but was waiting for Steve to get settled before she and Noah did. She knew Hank would try to squish his ass between them and for once, she was too sick to care. "You gonna watch the movie with mama?"

By Friday afternoon, almost three days after she got sick, she was feeling better and able to eat normally again. Noah's birthday was the next day and they were all leaving in a few hours to spend the weekend at Steve's parents' house. It was then that she started randomly getting sick at odd times during the day and night. Now she had no idea what it was until almost a week later when it hit her. She wasn't sure if that was it but she was going to bring it up with Steve that night. It was the only thing that made sense.

Noah settled down on one side of Mommy, reaching to hold mommys hand and comfort her, knowing how he felt when he was sick and how much mommy made him feel better when she laid with him and held his hand and just laid there with him. For once, Hank laid quietly at the end of the bed with Kojak, though he kept his eyes on Steve, eventually letting them slip shut and Steve got settled once Sam and Noah did, glancing over at them.

Steve had noticed Sam getting better as the days went on, and by Friday had noticed the sickness almost completely gone, until he'd seen and heard her rush off to the bathroom a few times randomly, not really thinking anything of it, so busy with getting things ready for Noahs birthday. He was just finishing up playing a game of T-Ball with Noah in the back yard, leaving Noah outside with Kojak as he walks inside to get some water and he smiles at Sam, "Hey, wanna come sit outside with us?"

About the most energy Sam had by the time she got settled was to give Noah a smile as he held her hand. He could be such a sweet little boy. Not thirty minutes into the movie she was asleep, which was probably the best thing for her.

She had just poured herself a glass of iced tea when Steve walked inside and while she had planned on just collapsing on the couch, sitting outside didn't sound that bad either. "Yeah, that sounds nice. Here, take Noah this little bottle of water." She handed him one of the small eight ounce bottles of water they'd bought just for him. She walked out with him and took a seat in one of the comfy chairs they had, sipping her tea and watching Noah playing with Kojak. "Did you two have fun playing ball?"

Steve takes the little bottle of water and walks back outside with Sam, cracking the bottle open for Noah and letting him take a little sip before putting the cap back on and setting it off to the side so Noah can get to it when he wants. He sits down next to Sam and smiles over at her, "Mmhmm, hes gettin' really good at pitchin', I think we're gonna have to go see Uncle Donnie sometime soon so he can take 'im to a real baseball game, and a hockey game too" He smiled, glancing over at her and taking her hand, playing with her wedding rings, "You okay?"

While Sam was still talkative, there was that little spunky way she had that seemed to be missing since she'd been sick. "I bet he'd love to take him to a Yankees game just like dad used to take us. Maybe this summer or fall. I bet mom would like to go see him, too." She didn't even want to think about hockey yet but had a feeling Noah would like it especially because Uncle Donnie plays. She was quiet a moment before Steve spoke and she looked at him and shook her head. "I still don't feel right since I'd gotten sick. I was thinking after Noah goes to bed, maybe we should take a test and see if that's it."

Up until that moment he hadnt even thought about taking a test, "Do you think ... do you think you could be?" He asked, excited, but worried because he cant remember her ever being this sick with Noah, but of course, all pregnancies were different. He looks at Noah who was currently throwing the ball for Kojak and laughing when he'd come barreling back to him and practically bowl him over and drop the ball in his lap.

Sam shrugged because she hadn't thought about it one way or the other. "Well, I guess I just had a stomach flu at first but look at me now. I'm getting sick at all weird times of the day. There's just no pattern. I don't know what else it could be." she pointed out, looking out into the yard at Noah when Steve did. "If that's not it, then I'm gonna have to go see a doctor and find out what's wrong."

Steve looked out at Noah and then back at Sam, squeezing her hand gently, "Well ... I mean, we have been tryin' I just ... I didnt even think it could be that" He said, feeling silly for putting that out of his mind, "Do we still have tests upstairs or should I run out and get a few?" He asked. Noah standing up just as Kojak came barreling towards him and knocked him over, sending him into a fit of giggles as he licked his face and hands and feet, making Steve laugh, "Thank god he bounces, and he dont cry much" He chuckled.

"That stomach flu threw us off, too. I think if I'd just started randomly getting sick, we would have though of it quicker." She had felt so sick, she'd put just about everything out of her mind. "I'll go check them in a little bit and make sure they're not expired. If they are, you can get a couple." She didn't think they were since they'd only bought them a few months ago. She watched Noah and braced herself, knowing what was about to happen, glad to see it made him laugh instead of cry. I guess growing up with Kojak, he just thinks that's normal."

He tugs on her hand and leans in closer so he can kiss her, "I love you" He smiled, kissing her once more and then looking over at Noah, "Maybe those ears and that bald heard are good for somethin' ... make 'im aerodynamic enough to fall and not get hurt" He chuckled, watching Noah stand back up and hang all over Kojak whos totally fine with is and just stands there, toy in his mouth as Noah practically climbs on him, tugs his ears, hangs over his back, petting his head a little harder than mommy and daddy usually did and for a three year old pup, he was pretty tolerant of it all.

She looked over at Steve before slipping into his lap, kissing and nuzzling against him. "I love you, too. Are you ready for another baby if a test is positive?" she asked, knowing they'd actually planned this one, though Noah being a surprise was something she enjoyed. "He is getting a little more hair on his head, it's just so damn blonde it's hard to see but the ears..." she playfully shook her head, "they're not gonna change." She didn't care because he was a beautiful little baby who already looked like his dad. She was quiet as they watched Noah with Kojak, just letting the little boy do whatever he wanted and not walking off or getting mad. "Kojak is so good with him."

"Im ready," he started, "at least, I think I'm ready" he chuckled, "We made it through Noah, and he was a total surprise, we actual planned this one" he smiled, kissing her cheek and temple, cuddling her close and looking at Noah and Kojak, "I was worried he'd be too crazy with 'im, but I can't believe how good he is, how good they are together," he said quietly, trying not to think about it but it was hard not to think ahead to ten or twelve years from now when Kojak was an old man, and they'd have to say their goodbyes to him. "Are you ready for a baby if that test is positive?" He asked.

She chuckled, "If the test is positive, then you better be ready for another one." She knew he was just teasing and he was right. They got through Noah and everything turned out great. "I was a little worried, not knowing how you'd feel when I had to tell you about Noah. I'm glad you were happy about it." She snuggled up against him as they watched their 'boys' while Hank stretched out on one of the lounge chairs. "We might have to get another dog if two babies are hanging all over him. Luckily right now, she was too busy thinking about a possible pregnancy to think about Kojak getting old or she would have been a little sad. "I'm ready. Do you think it'll be easier the second time around since we'll know what we're doing?"

"Ill be ready, I mean, look at Peanut, hes still alive" He snorted, hugging her close and and rubbing his finger tips over her arm and down to play with her wedding rings, "Noah was a surprise and the LAST thing I would have expected but, arent ALL first babies a surprise? I dont understand how they couldnt be" He chuckled, kissing her head again and glancing over at Hank, perfectly content and then at Noah, now laying down in the grass with Kojak who was all stretched out on his side, Noah laying on top of him and snuggling with him. "Maybe when number two gets a little older we'll think about another dog, I cant imagine a puppy and a baby at the same time" He chuckled, shrugging a bit, "I dont know, I would hope some stuff would be a bit easier, like diapers, and the whole sleep schedule thing, just knowin' what to expect, but, all pregnancies and babies are different, it'll be fun, and I promise I wont be a big asshole this time around like I was with Noah"

"I don't know. I guess some people plan their first babies but most probably are surprises." She didn't know anybody who actually planned their first child and assumed there would be a lot less people in the world if they did. While Sam wasn't opposed to another dog at all, a new dog and baby at the same time did not sound appealing. "We definitely need to wait a while for a second dog, especially if it's a puppy. I think that would drive us both crazy. Only one baby anything at a time." She was feeling better about a second pregnancy, not as worried about it all as she was the first time. "It would all have to be easier. Sure, it could be different but you're still doing the same things. We'll know there's night time feedings and adjusting to nursing and hopefully the baby will adjust quickly to nursing. I bet we won't be as stressed this time. That should mean a less nervous baby which should mean less crying." She was hopeful and she'd read up on her books. "When were you a big asshole with Noah?" she asked, her brow furrowed because either he wasn't or she just didn't remember.

"Noah was a pretty good baby though, I mean, lookin' back on it, at the time I know we though we was dyin' some nights, but he really was a good baby" He smiled, just thinking about having another baby and getting to go through all the ups and downs of having a little tiny baby again. He chuckles and then thinks for a minute, "Hmmm lets see, well I started a fight over paper towels, I seem to recall bringin' pizza home, that resulted in a fight and you goin' and sittin' in a car, a few facebook fights, ummm, I almost caused you not to get an epidural ... or the end of our marriage" he chuckled, but in all seriousness, he really did feel bad about those times, "And those weekend trainings I couldnt get away from goin' to, those sucked, and will continue to suck and ..." he's about to say something else but trails off and realizes its better left unsaid.

"Now we know that letting a baby cry, no matter how bad they sound, isn't going to kill them or hurt them in some way and sometimes they actually comfort themselves." It was hard to listen to Noah cry but she knew that depending on the circumstance, they wouldn't run and try to comfort the next baby so quickly. A lot of that stuff Sam had forgotten and some of those arguments were stupid. "You know, I wanted to bop you in the head with your paper towels that day. The pizza, it wasn't the reason for the fight. The baby just didn't like the smell of pizza that day and it made me sick. The fan fight was something else. I'd been hot all day and you came home to me barely dressed, acted like a big ASS, telling me to put on clothes because we might get company. Remember that?" she asked, hugging him tight and kissing his temple. "The facebook fights was because of pictures and shit other people were posting and tagging you in. The epidural, oh yeah, I was ready to kill you over that." she chuckled. When he trailed off, she had an idea of where he was going with that and she also left it alone, not wanting him going overseas again.

He nodded his head and chuckled as he thought about those fights, all of them seeming so silly now, but at the time, boy they were anything BUT silly. He hugs her tight, rubbing her back and kissing her forehead, her cheek and then her lips once shes finished. "I love you, you know that right?" He smiled, "No matter what, I dont think I tell you I love you enough ... not like I used to before we because a family." He said softly.

Those fights always seemed worse than they were because they rarely did fight. It just made the few they had really stand out. She leaned against him and nodded her head. "Of course, I know that. Even if you only told me that once a day, I'd still know that." she assured him, smiling and kissing him softly. "Those fights, you know those are basically the only fights we had the entire time I was pregnant with Noah, right? I think that's why they seem like they were so huge. Look at some of our friends or some of the people you work with who DO fight all the time. We're not like that and we're never gonna be."

He kissed her back and nodded his head, "I know, I know, we could be MUCH worse when it comes to fights, especially with your temper" He teased, kissing her again and hugging her close, playing with her wedding rings and looking over at Noah, "You ready to be a mommy again?" He asked softly, kissing in front of her ear and moving her hair out of the way so he can kiss and nip her neck playfully, one hand moving to her tummy.

She giggled softly and pulled back, giving him that look of hers though there was a smile this time. "MY temper? Did you forget about the temper YOU have? It's a wonder we're not like that couple of The War of the Roses." she teased, nuzzling against him as she watched him play with her rings. "Yeah, I'm ready. Are you ready to be a daddy again? It's not too soon, is it? Noah's only two."

"MY temper? I dont know what you're talkin' about" He said with a little grin, looking over at Noah still sprawled out with Kojak and over to Hank, happily napping in one of the chairs near them, the hand on her tummy rubbing gently and he nods his head, "I got about eight months or so to get ready right?" He said with a straight face, and then smiled, "Im ready, and I dont think its too soon, by the time shes born, Noah will probably be close to three, they'll be a good age range"

"She? I haven't even taken the test yet and you've decided it's a girl?" she asked, nudging his shoulder with hers, clearly teasing him. "I thought Shrivers didn't have girls. He'd always told her that but it seemed like now he was wanting a little girl. "What if we're getting ourselves all worked up and I'm not even pregnant?"

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