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Samantha Shriver ([personal profile] sammysicle) wrote2013-04-28 12:37 am
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army!brat - miscarriage

around Tuesday, April 9, 2013.  Noah will be 2 on the 13th.

Before Sam found out she was pregnant with Noah, she'd barely had morning sickness. She wasn't complaining and after almost a week, being pregnant crossed her mind. She swore with her next pregnancy she'd recognize the symptoms sooner. She did not.

To her credit though, she had been exposed to some kind of nasty stomach bug. The first day she started feeling bad, she wasn't surprised when she went running from the dinner table, straight to the bathroom and emptying the contents of her stomach.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
After being surprised with Noah, Steve had promised himself that he'd pay more attention when it came time for them to start trying for baby number two, he'd pay attention to her symptoms, and everything you were supposed to be paying attention to, but ... he didnt, and he was mid bite when she darted away from the table and Noah pointed at Mommy, laughing and thinking it was a game and Steve looked at him, standing up and kissing his little head, "Eat your food" He said and made sure Noah couldnt get into any trouble as he walked down the hall and into the bathroom, grabbing her hair back and rubbing her back.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 05:43 am (UTC)(link)
Steve notices that she hadnt quite made it to the toilet and for the moment he continues to rub her back with one hand, the other holding her hair out of her face as he talks to her quietly, "You're okay, just let it out Sam" He said softly, and to be completely honest, he had no idea she could be pregnant right now, at least it wasnt the first thought that popped into his head. He waits a few more minutes and then grabs a hair tie from one of the drawers, tugging her hair into a pony tail as best he can and leaning to turn the shower on, grabbing down a towel and setting it on the counter for her, moving so hes right beside her, letting her take the time she needs to let the sick feelings pass.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
He stays quiet, continuing to rub her back and when she says flush, he does, and offers her a damp cloth once he helps her stand up, shaking his head, "Dont be sorry" he said softly, taking in her appearance, "Why dont you hop in the shower, just take a minute and relax, ill finish up with Noah, keep him busy, and heat you up some soup or maybe make you a smoothie? Somethin' a lot better than ..." he's about to say what they'd been having for dinner but realizes thats not a good idea, "that what we were eatin'" He offers, "Ill clean up in here" He said softly, leaning and kissing her forehead, "You feelin' alright?"
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 08:14 am (UTC)(link)
He nodded his head and leaned in to kiss her forehead, "Holler if you need anything" He said gently, waiting for her to hop in the shower before cleaning up the mess on the floor and grabbing her dirty clothes and heading out of the bathroom, checking on Noah and tossing the dirty towels and clothes in the washer, snagging a fresh pair of panties, yoga pants, and one of his shirts and setting it in the bathroom for Sam and heading back to clean up from dinner, helping Noah down from his seat and letting him go play once he turns on Monsters Inc. for him.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 09:05 am (UTC)(link)
He'd been sitting on the couch talking to Noah about his trucks and tractors and how they looked a lot like the ones at grandma and grandpas house when he heard Sam walk down the hall and he looks up, "Hi sweetie" He smiled, and Noah looked up at Mommy, walking over to her, "Hi mommy" He said sweetly, wrapping his little arms around her leg.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 09:27 am (UTC)(link)
Noah looked at Mommy and then backed away and ran off down the hallway, disappearing into his room and Steve looked over at her, taking in her clammy and pale appearance. "Oh Sammy, you dont look good at all baby" He said gently, leaning and kissing her forehead, "You're burnin' up" he said gently, nodding his head and standing up, "Lemonade smoothie an tylenol comin' up" He said, heading into the kitchen and Noah runs back into the living room as fast as his little legs can carry him, an old stethoscope daddy had given him that no longer really worked, along with an old blood pressure cuff, and one of his camo jackets that had SHRIVER in bold letters on the left side pocket and medic patches on the shoulders and he walks to mommy, "Hi mommy" He smiled a toothy smile.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 09:52 am (UTC)(link)
Steve had busied himself with making her smoothie and getting her some Tylenol, pouring the smoothie in a glass and sticking a straw in it to make it easier for her, grabbing the Tylenol and just as he walks into the living room he sees Noah and he has to set her smoothie down and grab his phone, snapping a few photos before putting his phone away and walking to Sam, setting the smoothie on the table, holding the tylenol out to her and trying not to bother Noah as he "listened" to mommys heart beat, although he was "listening" through her arm, but hey ... whatever worked. "Hows mommy doin'? Is she gonna make it?" He asked and Noah looked at daddy, "I fink so" he said sternly, handing mommy her smoothie.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 05:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Noah giggled at mommy and took his stethoscope and listened to Kojaks heartbeat, through his head and then listened felt mommys head with his hand like daddy had done before to both him and mommy and he held mommys face in his hands once she was done taking a sip of her smoothie, "Mama you need to sleep and watch a movie and eat ice cweeem" he said sternly and Steve chuckled, sitting next to Sam and rubbing her back.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 07:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Noah nodded his head and smiled, "Mmhmm, its warm mama, you HAS to eat wots of ice cweem and wet me and daddy tuck yous in bed" he smiled, running over to their cabinet full of movies and looking at all of them, waiting for mommy to pick one. Steve wrapped an arm around Sam and kissed her forehead, rubbing her arm with his fingertips and chuckling at Noah, "How 'bout you pick one for mommy?" He offered, and that could be a good or bad thing. Noah looks at all the movies and then finds the one hes looking for, knowing its one of mommys favorites and runs over and hands it to daddy and Steve holds it up to Sam, Sweet Home Alabama.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 08:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Noah smiled at mommy and blew her a kiss, hanging onto the movie once daddy showed it to mommy and Steve stood up, handing Noah mommys smoothie, "Take that Peanut, go into our bedroom and get comfy okay?" He said and Noah nodded his head, hurrying down the hall and Kojak ran after him, Hank not far behind and Steve leaned down and scooped Sam up in his arms. "Come on beautiful girl, lets go get you in bed and we'll all cuddle up and watch movies and Noah and I can take care'a you"
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 08:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Noah settled down on one side of Mommy, reaching to hold mommys hand and comfort her, knowing how he felt when he was sick and how much mommy made him feel better when she laid with him and held his hand and just laid there with him. For once, Hank laid quietly at the end of the bed with Kojak, though he kept his eyes on Steve, eventually letting them slip shut and Steve got settled once Sam and Noah did, glancing over at them.

Steve had noticed Sam getting better as the days went on, and by Friday had noticed the sickness almost completely gone, until he'd seen and heard her rush off to the bathroom a few times randomly, not really thinking anything of it, so busy with getting things ready for Noahs birthday. He was just finishing up playing a game of T-Ball with Noah in the back yard, leaving Noah outside with Kojak as he walks inside to get some water and he smiles at Sam, "Hey, wanna come sit outside with us?"
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Steve takes the little bottle of water and walks back outside with Sam, cracking the bottle open for Noah and letting him take a little sip before putting the cap back on and setting it off to the side so Noah can get to it when he wants. He sits down next to Sam and smiles over at her, "Mmhmm, hes gettin' really good at pitchin', I think we're gonna have to go see Uncle Donnie sometime soon so he can take 'im to a real baseball game, and a hockey game too" He smiled, glancing over at her and taking her hand, playing with her wedding rings, "You okay?"
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-29 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
Up until that moment he hadnt even thought about taking a test, "Do you think ... do you think you could be?" He asked, excited, but worried because he cant remember her ever being this sick with Noah, but of course, all pregnancies were different. He looks at Noah who was currently throwing the ball for Kojak and laughing when he'd come barreling back to him and practically bowl him over and drop the ball in his lap.

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