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Samantha Shriver ([personal profile] sammysicle) wrote2013-04-28 12:37 am
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army!brat - miscarriage

around Tuesday, April 9, 2013.  Noah will be 2 on the 13th.

Before Sam found out she was pregnant with Noah, she'd barely had morning sickness. She wasn't complaining and after almost a week, being pregnant crossed her mind. She swore with her next pregnancy she'd recognize the symptoms sooner. She did not.

To her credit though, she had been exposed to some kind of nasty stomach bug. The first day she started feeling bad, she wasn't surprised when she went running from the dinner table, straight to the bathroom and emptying the contents of her stomach.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 09:05 am (UTC)(link)
He'd been sitting on the couch talking to Noah about his trucks and tractors and how they looked a lot like the ones at grandma and grandpas house when he heard Sam walk down the hall and he looks up, "Hi sweetie" He smiled, and Noah looked up at Mommy, walking over to her, "Hi mommy" He said sweetly, wrapping his little arms around her leg.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 09:27 am (UTC)(link)
Noah looked at Mommy and then backed away and ran off down the hallway, disappearing into his room and Steve looked over at her, taking in her clammy and pale appearance. "Oh Sammy, you dont look good at all baby" He said gently, leaning and kissing her forehead, "You're burnin' up" he said gently, nodding his head and standing up, "Lemonade smoothie an tylenol comin' up" He said, heading into the kitchen and Noah runs back into the living room as fast as his little legs can carry him, an old stethoscope daddy had given him that no longer really worked, along with an old blood pressure cuff, and one of his camo jackets that had SHRIVER in bold letters on the left side pocket and medic patches on the shoulders and he walks to mommy, "Hi mommy" He smiled a toothy smile.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 09:52 am (UTC)(link)
Steve had busied himself with making her smoothie and getting her some Tylenol, pouring the smoothie in a glass and sticking a straw in it to make it easier for her, grabbing the Tylenol and just as he walks into the living room he sees Noah and he has to set her smoothie down and grab his phone, snapping a few photos before putting his phone away and walking to Sam, setting the smoothie on the table, holding the tylenol out to her and trying not to bother Noah as he "listened" to mommys heart beat, although he was "listening" through her arm, but hey ... whatever worked. "Hows mommy doin'? Is she gonna make it?" He asked and Noah looked at daddy, "I fink so" he said sternly, handing mommy her smoothie.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 05:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Noah giggled at mommy and took his stethoscope and listened to Kojaks heartbeat, through his head and then listened felt mommys head with his hand like daddy had done before to both him and mommy and he held mommys face in his hands once she was done taking a sip of her smoothie, "Mama you need to sleep and watch a movie and eat ice cweeem" he said sternly and Steve chuckled, sitting next to Sam and rubbing her back.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 07:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Noah nodded his head and smiled, "Mmhmm, its warm mama, you HAS to eat wots of ice cweem and wet me and daddy tuck yous in bed" he smiled, running over to their cabinet full of movies and looking at all of them, waiting for mommy to pick one. Steve wrapped an arm around Sam and kissed her forehead, rubbing her arm with his fingertips and chuckling at Noah, "How 'bout you pick one for mommy?" He offered, and that could be a good or bad thing. Noah looks at all the movies and then finds the one hes looking for, knowing its one of mommys favorites and runs over and hands it to daddy and Steve holds it up to Sam, Sweet Home Alabama.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 08:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Noah smiled at mommy and blew her a kiss, hanging onto the movie once daddy showed it to mommy and Steve stood up, handing Noah mommys smoothie, "Take that Peanut, go into our bedroom and get comfy okay?" He said and Noah nodded his head, hurrying down the hall and Kojak ran after him, Hank not far behind and Steve leaned down and scooped Sam up in his arms. "Come on beautiful girl, lets go get you in bed and we'll all cuddle up and watch movies and Noah and I can take care'a you"
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 08:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Noah settled down on one side of Mommy, reaching to hold mommys hand and comfort her, knowing how he felt when he was sick and how much mommy made him feel better when she laid with him and held his hand and just laid there with him. For once, Hank laid quietly at the end of the bed with Kojak, though he kept his eyes on Steve, eventually letting them slip shut and Steve got settled once Sam and Noah did, glancing over at them.

Steve had noticed Sam getting better as the days went on, and by Friday had noticed the sickness almost completely gone, until he'd seen and heard her rush off to the bathroom a few times randomly, not really thinking anything of it, so busy with getting things ready for Noahs birthday. He was just finishing up playing a game of T-Ball with Noah in the back yard, leaving Noah outside with Kojak as he walks inside to get some water and he smiles at Sam, "Hey, wanna come sit outside with us?"
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-28 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Steve takes the little bottle of water and walks back outside with Sam, cracking the bottle open for Noah and letting him take a little sip before putting the cap back on and setting it off to the side so Noah can get to it when he wants. He sits down next to Sam and smiles over at her, "Mmhmm, hes gettin' really good at pitchin', I think we're gonna have to go see Uncle Donnie sometime soon so he can take 'im to a real baseball game, and a hockey game too" He smiled, glancing over at her and taking her hand, playing with her wedding rings, "You okay?"
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-29 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
Up until that moment he hadnt even thought about taking a test, "Do you think ... do you think you could be?" He asked, excited, but worried because he cant remember her ever being this sick with Noah, but of course, all pregnancies were different. He looks at Noah who was currently throwing the ball for Kojak and laughing when he'd come barreling back to him and practically bowl him over and drop the ball in his lap.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-29 06:49 am (UTC)(link)
Steve looked out at Noah and then back at Sam, squeezing her hand gently, "Well ... I mean, we have been tryin' I just ... I didnt even think it could be that" He said, feeling silly for putting that out of his mind, "Do we still have tests upstairs or should I run out and get a few?" He asked. Noah standing up just as Kojak came barreling towards him and knocked him over, sending him into a fit of giggles as he licked his face and hands and feet, making Steve laugh, "Thank god he bounces, and he dont cry much" He chuckled.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-04-29 07:13 am (UTC)(link)
He tugs on her hand and leans in closer so he can kiss her, "I love you" He smiled, kissing her once more and then looking over at Noah, "Maybe those ears and that bald heard are good for somethin' ... make 'im aerodynamic enough to fall and not get hurt" He chuckled, watching Noah stand back up and hang all over Kojak whos totally fine with is and just stands there, toy in his mouth as Noah practically climbs on him, tugs his ears, hangs over his back, petting his head a little harder than mommy and daddy usually did and for a three year old pup, he was pretty tolerant of it all.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-05-01 06:07 pm (UTC)(link)
"Im ready," he started, "at least, I think I'm ready" he chuckled, "We made it through Noah, and he was a total surprise, we actual planned this one" he smiled, kissing her cheek and temple, cuddling her close and looking at Noah and Kojak, "I was worried he'd be too crazy with 'im, but I can't believe how good he is, how good they are together," he said quietly, trying not to think about it but it was hard not to think ahead to ten or twelve years from now when Kojak was an old man, and they'd have to say their goodbyes to him. "Are you ready for a baby if that test is positive?" He asked.
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[personal profile] sgtshriver 2013-05-02 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
"Ill be ready, I mean, look at Peanut, hes still alive" He snorted, hugging her close and and rubbing his finger tips over her arm and down to play with her wedding rings, "Noah was a surprise and the LAST thing I would have expected but, arent ALL first babies a surprise? I dont understand how they couldnt be" He chuckled, kissing her head again and glancing over at Hank, perfectly content and then at Noah, now laying down in the grass with Kojak who was all stretched out on his side, Noah laying on top of him and snuggling with him. "Maybe when number two gets a little older we'll think about another dog, I cant imagine a puppy and a baby at the same time" He chuckled, shrugging a bit, "I dont know, I would hope some stuff would be a bit easier, like diapers, and the whole sleep schedule thing, just knowin' what to expect, but, all pregnancies and babies are different, it'll be fun, and I promise I wont be a big asshole this time around like I was with Noah"

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